It's only been five months but there really haven't been many moments where her absence hasn't been felt.
I recently went home for a visit and it took me a little while to feel comfortable. I really kept looking over my shoulder expecting her smiling face to come walking up the road like she had every other time before. I mean, I know she's gone. I do know this but it's like my heart just won't allow it to be real yet. More importantly, I don't want it to be real.
Life is a cruel task master.
I don't remember the exact moment I first met her but there was that distinct occurrence. She came to visit from Korea and then she just never left. She didn't speak a word of English and I didn't speak a word of Korean, yet it never hindered us. We ended up with a lot of fun, silly vocabulary words, some that have replaced proper words for us!
I have definitely been blessed to have had so many grandparents in my life. I loved every single one of them equally and I miss them all every day. But there was something special about Harmony.
If I carry one regret in this lifetime, it will be that I should have but never did learn to speak Korean so I could tell my grandmother that I loved her in her own language. She deserved that.
I love and miss you Harmony!
